209lbs!

Hot damn! I'm super excited about that... I cannot even remember the last time I weighed this much. I'm so close to being under 200lbs! Plus as soon as I get to that mark I get to have a massage! I have seriously been looking forward to it for a long time, because massages feel damn good LoL.

Yesterday, Chris and I went down to the Parks at Arlington to go see a movie with friends from work. We got there early and decided to do some shopping. Of course we went into Abercrombie because Chris is an Abercrombie & Fitch Bitch (haha I crack myself up sometimes). Then I decided to be brave and try on a t-shirt from American Eagle, and it did fit but I didn't feel like it fit that great... Chris said he liked it though. Blah. JCPenney's is where I fit into an XL (wOOt!) cute pink argyle shirt, and it was 50% off. Needless to say... it's mine! I was so happy that I was able to shop in the juniors section at JCPenney's again.

Unfortunately, I hold up shirts and I still look and think that there is no possible way that I'm going to fit into it. I don't know how long it's going to take, but I still see a fat girl when I look in the mirror. I know I'm still overweight, but I think with loosing 37lbs.. I should at least see some weight change when I look at myself in the mirror. Unforunately, with being overweight for so long it's going to take awhile for my self esteem and the way I see myself to go up.

3 more pounds and I will take an updated picture of myself... I don't know why I haven't been doing it. I think it's because I look at the pictures of me and I don't see a difference even though the scale says there is a major difference.

Stupid self image.