Moderation

Wow... it's been almost a year since I wrote in here. Not surprising because MySpace sucks the life out anyone that gets on it.

I've decided I'm going to loose 96lbs to get to a weight of 150lbs. I've started eating better and I've been working out just about everyday. I believe in myself this time, and I am actually going to go through with it. I want to be skinnier for a wedding that should be happening in the next year or so (if a certain someone would just freaking ask me already... no resentment there at all haha). I hate being the fat one, with all my friends and family - I'm the big one. I hate it and I end up hating me. I know that looks don't supposedly mean everything, but they do in this world.

I got a new job and I started on Monday. It's been killing me to get up early and drive over there, but hopefully my body will start to get used to it. It's hard getting off my full-time job (which is at midnight) and then coming home (45 minute drive home), working out for about an hour and then trying to go to sleep to be up by 7:15am. I am really in debt which is why I have acquired a new job at a law firm as a file clerk. And they apparently look really good on a resume or something (so I've been told).

I don't want to overload myself, but I am not happy with the financial situations I have put myself in. I have approximately $27k worth of debt at this time, and have only be able to be in debit for the past 3 years. How shitty is that, oh well I have completely dug myself into a hole I just don't want to get any farther.

I realize this is extremely long, but I haven't really blogged in a really long time. MySpace isn't really for blogging, it's more like for stalking your friends and checking comments which never arrive. I get addicted to websites too easy, my current website fix is www.thedailyplate.com, which is helping me attain my 150 weight goal.

::sigh:: I think I'm done for now

peace

Stephanie